Despised...

Love cornered me today. Against my full clogged heart it pressed asking me. Is this no longer my home, am I not supposed to be in there?
I had no answer for the space was taken by stones
You can see the jagged scratches within
Thru the pin pricks of light
The infected wounds
Stench of dieing meat

Love confronted me today
It's pristine red hands full of my hearts blood
It spoke of disillusions as if it knew
My pain
Lived in my ragged skin
Giving me reasons to love again
Screaming
You have become a shadow of me

It repetitiously said
Did u not say you were blessed
For the love that you had
The old love has injured you
Your pained
And lavished
You felt it's caresses in dreams
But never reality
And the heart is to blame?

Love!
Why do u hound me
Bind me to you
Your softness offends the pain
Chase me in circles
Bring me back to hell again
Where your beauty against the horror can almost convince me
Once again
That your bright smile is not fangs
In disguise

Tell the truth love
You despise me.



- BlooWriter

WEEP

have you ever seen a body weep

really stood to watch the pain wreak it

seen it tremble

with sorrow

that is how my body weeps tonight

for you

for us

what we were

and will never be

what you gave away and what I could never see

was never mine



have you ever seen a body weep

as a soldier that must lay down her weapons does

after fighting the longest battle

to see no one fighting beside her

her body waving in the wind as so many leaves

dancing with pain

dissolving in melancholy

as she delivers her last breath



have you ever seen a body weep

when all it has lived for has been taken

and only loneliness remains

that is how my body weeps tonight

for you

for us

for me…

A WEEKEND OF LEARNING...

               
             This weekend a friend came to visit. I have always loved meeing new people and I loved meeting her. She is down to earth, real and already a good friend. Somehow i don't think her weekend went as well as it should have. I was there and had it been my weekend i would have been much angrier than she displayed for she had every reason to be disappointed at the way things went, however she took the high road. She was strong and shook it off and had a great time regardless. She was a real trooper and taught me a thing or two about independence and being there when you say you will. I was proud to meet you miss G. and look forward to further visits.