I WILL PROTECT...

I will protect you from me

and all the anger I could be

come with me so I can

I will protect who i am

my heart

full of splinters

from what you have already done to me

when i was not looking



I will protect

who i want to be

the free little girl

dancing in the wind

by the trees where you thought you'd rape my thoughts from me

in a corner i sat recuperating my wounds

cascade of leaves

cacoon

to become this butterfly with stingers you now see

my colors muted by obscurity

but don't be fooled by me

i am a viper

my fangs are free

bleeding you profusely

but

i will protect my solidarity

my ability

to be

honest

a damn hard ass process

created by adversity



I will protect my seed

increase my visibility

I observe you coming

I am their breeze

the wings in them i have created

I will see them free

I will protect the he's

and the she

born form me

my destiny to be the alchemist



I will protect my sensitive dreams

your infection will not reach me

my shield is my reality

I will protect my voice

as it reaches, breaks down barriers

swishes in my mouth like water

spills on your soul like flowers

I will protect who i want to be

i am half way there

walk with me

engage in this complexity

of what it is to be me



I will protect my honesty

and serve it to you like rice and beans

everyone needs a hearty meal of me

once in a while

when they believe

they superseded

unheeded

the advice of where you raised up

your head full of lead

ill conceived achievements

be human

and i will protect you

as if you were me

through me

because you were made

from blood and bone

and to dust you will return

this ain't nothing but a chicken bone on gods plate

he ate the meat

you're going to the dog

didn't you know



I won't protect you from my words

this is my song

the pen is where i belong

but if you want

I will bring you along

be strong

because I will not

protect you from truth



la la la la la la la la I have to keep writing

la la la la la la la free writing time can't stop la la la la la

love being here and doing this la la la la yea I'm getting tired I kinda wanna stop now

and read what I wrote I love sharing who understand what I'm about la la la la la how long will this go on

lets see if I will fill this page too la la la la my foot hurts and i just took extra time to write the S oh man come on now! la la la la la

crazy ain't it? but I'm not giving up.

OUR HOUR...

hi, how are you


good i good lover how are you

dreaming of you she said

can you come over today

you know i cant lover.. i must go home today

one hour.. i need you, just one hour why cant you give me that tonight

i give you all you want of me he says but just not tonight

when i want you most .. she says

you know how i get when i need you

hungry



one hour lover..come to me wont you?

you say one hour but you know it is

never so with us

we can talk she whispers

talk.. he says

is never enough with us

id want to make love

and making love to you

is never an hour long thing

the feel of you sends me crazy

you know this



will you come to me then...

yes

i will come, if you tell me why I can't deny you

because there is fire here and you are my water.. she says

one hour



opening the door he stands there his eyes hell fire

shirt already half open just from the ride in the car

he knew he had to be somewhat ready for her even as he got in the car

he knew how they did when they got together

everything flew off before their eyes even adjusted to each others bodies

she will rip my shit if im not careful

my little lioness

almost as hard as i rip her pussy apart when I'm tasting her

how can this shit be so fucking strong..he thinks standing there

the night is misty thunder rumbles

just like they will make the bed rumble if they even get there

the last time the living room furniture took the beating

the rain

its coming and it will fall hard

today was a crazy night to come see her

she knew when to draw him here

knew he could never say no



open the door for me baby he said under his breath

an hour baby

my red woman

needs me

wants me

the fever is taking me already

but she will make me last

an hour will never do



opening the door i heard you lover

you came

you will cum twice at least before you leave

standing by the door strong

eyes

piercing

dark

love lust filled eyes

he wants me

wet for him

ready



she wore the perfect outfit to feed his eyes

negligee lack of fabric

just above her ass cheeks the way he likes its

almost time to walk away

that he can see her hips sway

he could never take it

seeing her ass flow before his eyes like entrancing

passion took over him

hard before he crossed the thresh hold



glancing back as she walks away

catching his rapid breath

she almost gets away

his hand circling her waist

where you going eh

yes he's hard as stone tongue

licking her neck

when her moan escapes

slip

her hand

grabs

his... ahhh manhood

thick

promise of a good

long hour of passion and pain



turn

he groans

cupping her to him

you fit me reds

i wan you full of me

no panties between his traveling fingers

as she clears the fabric that holds him

thick hotheaded kisses

suck him in



take me to bed

baby

show me your love

i love you..

no.. show me

and he lifts her thighs to surround him

sucking the surface of her heated skin



open the door of my bedroom

lay me on you like warm sheets

he opens her

finger on discovery mode

blind to time and space

pull u to me

taste me

ohhh

you do

and i feel your tongue run circles around my now numb mind

and throbbing clit

sounds like a hungry beast

moans.. he plays my body like a flute

melodies leave my soul

before he enters me



open me

as he lifts

the hips that bind me and enters me

screams ripped from me

he says my name

over

and

over again

with each heated thrust

ohhh how he loves me....

the sweetness of his hips on grind mode

lips encircled around brown raised nipples



no release is worth stopping this...

Wanting...

He wants me
With all his insecurity about where it will lie
He still aches when he sees me
The dire flame I thought had died
Still resides within those eyes

I keep him suspended between love
And lust
There's touch
Never akin to skin on skin
The mind is a powerful thing
I intend to ascend thru the very veins
Of my lover
Spin him with the silken web between my legs

You
Who proffeses to be on control
That was until I swallowed you whole
And the gutteral moans became yours
In my ears you groaned
Damn mami...
For your mind couldn't concieve
what I could achieve
when I decided to take roads traveled but never mapped and branded
within the mind of the
one
who desires but to watch
you shake
and quake
at the very thought of the passage she will take

But you know
Boi
How to flip it
And contain me
A bee in your jar of honey
Praise me with your tongue
As I gush eternally
In utter bliss
Down your throat I disolve
I become yours
You become mine
My scent from your lips
Pours like wine
One taste from two
Perfume designed by the godess of truth
We were meant to blend like this
Me and you


- BlooWriter

Despised...

Love cornered me today. Against my full clogged heart it pressed asking me. Is this no longer my home, am I not supposed to be in there?
I had no answer for the space was taken by stones
You can see the jagged scratches within
Thru the pin pricks of light
The infected wounds
Stench of dieing meat

Love confronted me today
It's pristine red hands full of my hearts blood
It spoke of disillusions as if it knew
My pain
Lived in my ragged skin
Giving me reasons to love again
Screaming
You have become a shadow of me

It repetitiously said
Did u not say you were blessed
For the love that you had
The old love has injured you
Your pained
And lavished
You felt it's caresses in dreams
But never reality
And the heart is to blame?

Love!
Why do u hound me
Bind me to you
Your softness offends the pain
Chase me in circles
Bring me back to hell again
Where your beauty against the horror can almost convince me
Once again
That your bright smile is not fangs
In disguise

Tell the truth love
You despise me.



- BlooWriter

WEEP

have you ever seen a body weep

really stood to watch the pain wreak it

seen it tremble

with sorrow

that is how my body weeps tonight

for you

for us

what we were

and will never be

what you gave away and what I could never see

was never mine



have you ever seen a body weep

as a soldier that must lay down her weapons does

after fighting the longest battle

to see no one fighting beside her

her body waving in the wind as so many leaves

dancing with pain

dissolving in melancholy

as she delivers her last breath



have you ever seen a body weep

when all it has lived for has been taken

and only loneliness remains

that is how my body weeps tonight

for you

for us

for me…

A WEEKEND OF LEARNING...

               
             This weekend a friend came to visit. I have always loved meeing new people and I loved meeting her. She is down to earth, real and already a good friend. Somehow i don't think her weekend went as well as it should have. I was there and had it been my weekend i would have been much angrier than she displayed for she had every reason to be disappointed at the way things went, however she took the high road. She was strong and shook it off and had a great time regardless. She was a real trooper and taught me a thing or two about independence and being there when you say you will. I was proud to meet you miss G. and look forward to further visits.

SOMEONE...

I want someone to know me
but not in the sense everyone thinks they do

who gives a fuck what my favorite color is

what I like to do on sunny days

where I like to spend it

or with who

what size pants I wear

do I like t-shirts or dresses

as if these were grave confessions



I want someone who knows my blood

the way it runs

in which direction my guts lay

where my bones bend

from the inside out and vice versa

someone who can see thru my pretence and the veil of my existence

the persistence to make them see something that is not there

hell, even the reasons for the crabbiness during my period



I want someone who can spell my name backwards and forwards

and actually love the sound of it on the days when I’m a real asshole to them and the world

I want someone who is unafraid to travel to the pits of my psyche

and help me grow flowers on the dead soil of my mind

I want someone who can scream at me in lyrics when I’m wrong

so I can turn it into a country song

later on



I want someone who will bathe my feet as if Jesus were watching in approval from the next room

remembering how loving it felt when he had it done to him

I want someone who will be quiet thru my noise

who’s noise can blend with mine and when necessary overcome it

I want someone who knows the cracks in my soul

and becomes the mortar to make them less so



someone who knows the sway of my crooked spine from bearing the seed that may not be his

kissing it anyways with reverence

who travels the dark circles of my sleepless eyes and sees pools of beauty and bliss

someone who caresses my imperfections as if the word had been made for the most beautiful parts of a woman’s body



I want someone who will carve the happiness out of me

as Michelangelo did his David

I want someone to know me

like God knows his son and the book he inspired

the one who will know tears are coming

and will shower me with his own so I don’t realize I’m shedding mine



I want someone who will carry me thru the puddles of life

so that I may lay my coat down

that his feet may not know the cold rain

who lays the palms of his hands not on my shoulders

but my lower back

that he may push me forward when I am most resistant



I want someone who will ingest my salty jokes as if they were made of candy

repeating them to others as a stenograph in a trial

someone who will dance with me when the music is over and creates sounds to keep us bound

someone who believes in me as if I were he and had no choice but to see us as one entity

the one who will say I love you with his hands because to say the words always seem scattered and small without his touch to compliment it



that is what I want for me

I will be the same

for the beloved someone who really sees me